Yes I know.
Dear God, this is so frustrating. I thought I would feel fine but I am here breaking down to my bones. I am feeling weak and there’s nothing I can do.
I have tried so hard to please my thoughts and let them go but the intensity grows. It burns harder than before. It is exhuming me and I fear I am crashing into it.
I don’t want to feel like this anymore. I said I wanted to live my life but I can’t keep holding on. I cannot live with being ignored. I want to live and love and be happy.
I miss you with every pint of blood in my body. Right now?
I feel nothing. I am consumed by my thoughts. I want to hold you and run into the fields. I want to not be scared to say your name. I want to fight for this.
I wake to a very bright morning every passing day and yet, no letter, no text, no missed call. How do you all survive? How are you surviving? I know this is not what it was supposed to be, but I made the choice and yet I cannot stick to my decision? So much for “leave me alone”.
Let our souls long for one another and let our spirits linger till we connect to each other. Let us remember our vows and promises to each other and ignite the love that burns for one another.
“vuelve a mi mi amor, mi alma se muere”
There were times I thought I could do this,
I know there were times I said I would walk away.
It was never easy making those decisions,
Yet, you pulled me.
Oh, my soul longed for yours.
Blinded by the summer, my fingers reach for yours.
When will you be mine?
When would you open your inner self?
cuanto tiempo me evitarias mi amor?
Que paso contigo? Dimelo.
I am falling asleep and with every thought that comes, it holds you in it. It bundles you in it, like a data network is attached to a phone, or like a lock is accompanied with a key. I want to forget, but I don’t want to.
I miss you so much. You gave me so much to write about, and write I shall. How is the weather up there? How’s it coming? I hope you miss me too. Because then, I might collapse.
I have fallen a number of times and I have picked myself up. But this is one falling YOU have to pick me up from. I am messed up and I am slowly turning into what I ran away from again. I am suffering again, even with so many happy faces going around.
I wish I could whisper to the stars how much I love you. I wish I could send a message to the sun how I might kill to get you. The moon is not exempted either. It will shield and reflect our shadows when we hold hands at night and share our memories to our children.
For upon this and many more begat our love story. I hope we are together some day to tell them. It would be a very beautiful sight.
el amor es inevitable y la paciencia es una virtud, y quiero manejar ambos contigo.
Much Love,
‘ShadeOdebiyi.
From my Heart: MORENIKEJI A. ODEBIYI
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