ANXIETY🫂

I’m home.

At least someplace regarded as home. But I am not at peace here. There’s always this thought that something’s going to spring up soon.

I found a new favorite song, surprisingly it’s an Indian song titled Dhol Baje.

We moved to a new location too and I am so excited.

I’m going to miss my old life, but I’m picking new hobbies in my new home.

Crazy, isn’t it?

I love the serenity of my new area, the gentle breeze that comes with the night, the peace and quiet associated with this new place.

My new room is my personal space I believe, and it is cut just to my taste even though I do not like the color it is painted.

Ugh 🙄

I have always wanted a private space to myself and there’s this setting that has always been stuck in my head.

I would really love to execute that in here.

I came across old books in the course of unpacking and that threw me into the surprise of how long I have been writing for.

Of course, its not trimmed neither is it edited.

In it were just detailed writings of the emotions I felt at that period in time.

When I get so bored at home, I like to take a walk down the road. I refrained from that recently because the people in this new area always looked too much.

It was really exhausting!😂

A lot of times, my mind always pushed it to me that someone’s about to get mad at me or something is just about to spring up and a hundred percent of those times, that always happened.

You should listen to this too, sometime.

I am used to it.

Even as I write this, I still feel a sense of worry or uncertainty, more like I am not at ease.

As I wake in the morning, I say a little prayer on my bed, go to the bathroom, brush my teeth and then set out to do my chores. A lot of times when I am done with my chores I go back to bed.

Yes, to sleep of course.😌

Can you relate?

I almost forgot.. I take a shit too.😂

I have been writing articles entirely different from blog post, but imposter syndrome just like a friend said, will not let me post them.🥲

I fear it might not get as much audience as my blog post gets.

These articles are professionally written actually, not like it is as humorous as a blog post or relatable as one or friendly as a blog post.

I hope you understand?

I am just trying to write everything going on with me in my day to day life. I am trying to express what goes on in my head everyday.

There’s this man I love too.🥺

I want to be with him til’ we’re grey and old.

Dearest Reader,

I do not know if you truly understood this article, but I am in high hopes that you will do. I also have a question for you.

Does the title fit the article?

I really could not think of something else to label this article with and this just seemed to fit in for me. I’d really love to know if you think otherwise.

I love you Dear Reader and I am optimistic about your success!❤️🫂